Update -May 2017

So update!  We didn't end up going on a second date ( Javier) I like seriously ending up caving in and sending him a long VERY long heartfelt goodbye letter in which I profess my never ending love and how I tell him exactly how I felt  and how I wished that Monday would have ended differently I asked him kindly not to respond ( because like I just wanted him to know how I felt and how for me it was more than just dinner with an old friend ) but he didn't listen and apologized which I think was worse!!, like what ! seriously in my personal opinion that's like the worst thing you can do ! like if I told you DON'T REPLY then don't reply you know like now my heart is double broken because of you as in him, apparently forgetting how to read that was April 18th the last time we talked but didn't really talked, I did most of the talking as I always do. I just realized it hasn't even been a month! like what it feels like forever like at least two months I know not forever but Hey he's the love of my life as of now- I've recently got on tinder again not one of my best ideas but hey FRIENDS! Right ?... or horny boys maybe both ? haha I've been working every single day of the week except Tuesday (Good because Mondays SUCK just kidding I still love Mondays)  so far I have three dates planned on Tuesday and I might not even go to one. I've also been planning to start working out which reminds me this guy LORDDD !! he's beautiful HIS SMILE! HIS voice ( I'm Totally gonna mess this up ) But saw him on tinder he had his sc -snap chat- code so I, of course, HAD to add him but you know yea girl had to hit him up with a young pick up line (I might not be sriracha sauce but, I sure will spice up your life ) maybe not my best but hey! I tried right? - update from that it didn't work out at all but he works out he's a personal trainer and I'm not about that life!.......... Yet ??